Things I hate about you now...

I hate the way you make me feel right now, the way I feel inside
I hate it when you're quiet all day
I hate it when you're not reply my message
I hate it when you're busy
I hate it when you're distant
I hate it when you're closed up to me
I hate it when you're pissed of
I hate the way you make me addicted
I hate the way you make me feel up then make me feel down
I hate the way you make me cry at nights
I hate the way you make me upset
I hate the way you lie
I hate the way you're messing up my life
I hate the way you make me laugh then make me cry
I hate the way you love me now
I hate your Paris trip
I hate your Australian trip
I hate the feelings I have for you now
I hate it when you said not to worry
I hate the way how my life turned around you
I hate the way I miss you
I hate the way I want you
I hate the way I love you

I hate everything about you now
I just really hate the way you make feel right now...

Feelings...

Someone told me that I should try to change
and maybe it will bring you back to me
I cannot change what I am completely,
but I rather you be mean than love and lie

I started by saying sorry
I wish maybe it will make you open up to me...

I didnt call you a liar
I just think that you're hiding some facts from me
I'm trying to understand that maybe you doing that because you don't want to get me upset,
or you don't want to hurt me, or you don't want to lose me, or maybe you are fed up with my emotional things
Just open up to me dear, and help me to understand
Then maybe we can make this thing work...
If we really want it to work...

I miss so many things...

I miss so many things dear...
Millions of beautiful things and beautiful moments we have share together
Where did it go now?
Gone with the wind?

I miss our laughs
I miss our long conversation during the night
I miss your stories
I miss everything

I miss the way we kiss on the phone
I miss the way we make love on the phone

I miss everything about you
I miss everything about us
I miss the way we feel so in love with each other
I miss the way you so crazy about me

Where did all go dear?
Am I the one who made it disappear?
Am I the one who pushed you away from me?
Am I the one to blame?

Should we go on and maybe try to make it work again?
Or should we stop before its too late?

Its true to say that when you need your love ones the most,
it is the time when he turns their back on you...

I'm sorry

I just wanted to say that I’m so sorry for everything I’ve said and done all this time.
Everything that hurts you.
Everything that upsets you.
I’m sorry for everytime I got you into trouble.
I’m sorry for every upset moments I caused.
I’m sorry for every emotional moments I caused.
I’m sorry for all the bad words, bad thinking.
I’m sorry for your every nightmares, every bad moods.
I’m sorry for everything that I forget to say here.
I’m sorry for being difficult, I’m sorry for every burden and obligations.
I’m so sorry for everything.
I love you.

I’m sorry for every fights, every arguments, every jealousy.
I’m sorry for not listening to you.

I’m sorry too for all the times you’re feeling like a zombie.
I’m sorry for being difficult, I’m sorry for all the bad times.
I'm sorry for neglecting your needs. I'm sorry.

I’m sorry for all the angers, all the frustrations, all the desperation feelings.
I’m sorry for your unhappy moments.

I’ve said all this because I think its time for me to realize all my mistakes all this time and its time to say sorry.
I owe you a big apology.
I have other sorry to say, but I just cant remember it all now.
I will when I do.
Think about what I said and I hope that you forgive me.

I’m sorry for all the troubles I caused you at home and at work.
I’m just trying to be a better person, a better person than before.
So maybe I’ll forgive myself.
I’m trying to start new pages for me and I hope for us.
I’m trying to understand myself better and understand you and us.
I can only show love and understanding and support now.
I don’t have anything else to give.

Nothing is wrong.
I only want to say I’m sorry and hope it’s the right time.
I love you so much and that’s all I can give.
Nothing more.

I’m sorry for never being so understanding.

I feel sorry for all the bad things that has happened.

I said all these things because I have to.
Its time I should say sorry.
I have give you lots of had times without realizing it.
I shouldn’t do that.
It wont do any good.
I think we’re not going anywhere if I don’t start to change and start to understand.
I start by saying sorry.

I feel that the more I get upset or emotional over things, the more I push you away from me. The more I get upset, the more you feel resistant.
I think you are tired and have enough dealing with all these emotions with me.
You’re unhappy with me.
And I feel you got tired of dealing with all of my emotions.
And I don’t want that.
All my emotional things just keep push you away.

I don’t feel fine.
I’ve been not fine.
Its not alright when I keep pushing you away.
Its not alright when without realizing it I done things that pull yourself back away from me.
I didn’t make you laugh as much as I should.
I’m not fun to be with anymore.
We have negative communication.

I’m hoping you’re not going to see or judge all of my emotional things in a general way.
I’ve learned things along the way and I’m learning how to be strong.
I think I’ve learned to control myself a little bit.
I’ve been through so much.
And I’m learning everything. I hope.

Its not alright when I done nothing but keep you pull yourself away from me.
It takes two in everything, and its time for me to do something.

The negative vibes don’t help anyone.
Not myself, not you, not us.
I’ve been feeling these negative vibes, but I didn’t realize it till recently.
I’ve been giving it to everyone, including you, us, so I should start making it positive again.
Start from you and us, maybe it will make my life better.

If I start control my emotions and stop sending negative vibes, maybe it will do us good.
And do me good.
I start by saying sorry.

I just hope someday I get my old boyfriend back..
I love you